I never lost anyone till I lost my great grandfather. That was my hero, my superman. He isn't world known nor did he serve his country. But to the people who knew him, he was astounding. He loved people no matter what. He was a forgiving man, and a man of god. That's why, even though somedays I really don't know if I believe in God or what not, he did and he has to be somewhere good. His funeral was my first. It was the worst thing I've ever gone through.
Cold, hard skin. That wasn't him. Make up on his face. He looked like a clown. So the last time I really saw him was just days before, and he still wasn't him.
People say time heals and things get easier, but it hasn't. Four months and still waiting for some kind of reassurance. I know he was proud of me. I know he loved me, more than anyone else I know. Just don't see it fair he had to go. He wasn't that old, only 75, and just days before he was working on the pool, and hammering out the house. He never slowed down, even when he was told to. That was him. I feel guilty I wasn't there more, being active duty was hard.
I just hope he knows how much I love him.
This was rambling, but felt good to say it.
Cold, hard skin. That wasn't him. Make up on his face. He looked like a clown. So the last time I really saw him was just days before, and he still wasn't him.
People say time heals and things get easier, but it hasn't. Four months and still waiting for some kind of reassurance. I know he was proud of me. I know he loved me, more than anyone else I know. Just don't see it fair he had to go. He wasn't that old, only 75, and just days before he was working on the pool, and hammering out the house. He never slowed down, even when he was told to. That was him. I feel guilty I wasn't there more, being active duty was hard.
I just hope he knows how much I love him.
This was rambling, but felt good to say it.
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